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Post by modesty_b » Wed Aug 14, 2013 12:34 pm

Hi folks; it's been a long time but nice to see this forum endures.

I just got some very sad news via Facebook today...Pengy/John passed away yesterday from the cancer he's been battling for some time.

(I didn't see anything elsewhere on the forum about this, so apologies if it's posted somewhere and I missed it.)

Not sure if it's viewable by those not on Facebook and/or in his Friends list, but his FB page is here: https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100002294434586 People have been posting photos, memories, etc. there.

I have SO many great memories of this funny, sweet, creative man...and the time spent in touch with him on a daily basis during the years of the BAR clan and UT gaming... I am still processing this awful news. :(

Anyway--I just wanted to post this so his many friends here will know of his passing.
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Post by infant » Wed Aug 14, 2013 6:57 pm

Thanks for sharing.

I had no idea he was ill :(
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Post by He||raZ'r » Sun Aug 18, 2013 9:52 am

I always thought of Pengy of being the head honcho around here, always at the ready to comment or give his advise or give grief or say something smart-alecky (doesn't he have the most posts here??!!) damn, what a loss, I %$#*ing hate cancer.

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Post by Duesy » Sun Aug 18, 2013 10:12 am

I'm So sad to hear this... He was the nicest guy. :(

So sad. <3.

Thank you for posting.
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Post by Acid » Sun Aug 18, 2013 10:19 am

Dammit. I will miss ya brother. Some of the best memories I will always take with me were right here starting with John. Sad sad day.

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Post by BAR|Apoc|vT » Sun Aug 18, 2013 12:35 pm

I'm a bit lost with the whole thing at the moment, as I just came off a weeklong vacation and happened to run into another long time friend from those UT days (Takedown's son) in another game where we still stay connected who told me that John's mom had reached out to a lot of folks who were on his cell phone to let them know.

I met John back in the ancient days of UT on the Epix Dallas PA UT face server, probably somewhere in the middle of 2000, when he was just Fear The Penguin. We were fast friends after a few matches on the same team, and there the BAR clan took off. I met a lot of great folks who had some semblance of longevity in my gaming life, but none like John. After many years of just hanging local on Face servers (finally settling on HHH in it's heyday...) and realizing how local and underpowered we were after attempting some competitive ladders, we just settled in with the local community and enjoyed the mindless randomness of long long nights of Facing Worlds games, sometimes for the games, but mostly for the constant 4-7 hours worth of random chatter in his TS server. Probably the best thing that ever came of this game was the good friend I made in him, an avid gamer who could jaw with me about anything. And that we did. He and I talked often about our private lives, mine including a new girlfriend that became my wife, and later on through the beginnings of fatherhood for me, he about his current relationships, changes in career with a longtime stable job ending, moving back home and leaving good friends behind, and ultimately not being able to get back into the workforce for what ended up being a very long time. Yet he never got down about it, he simply called it as it was, plodded on through months and years without stable employment and family difficulties, or loss of friends through growing pains and such, with candor and an upbeat look at tomorrow.

He finally took a brief hiatus from UT, and somehow sucked me into playing WOW during vanilla, I think in about 2005, along with BAR|Takedown and Bloodfart. Good god, we killed a lot of our young adult lives leveling characters and doing random anything, still maintaining more hours together on a game and in TS than we probably did with other real people out in the fresh air. Mostly due to the fact that we were both extreme night owls, and could hang out long after friends and family activities were done for the day. I remember living roughly on a 4-5 hour sleep schedule in those days, shutting down at 1 or 2 am with him, and checking back online for something or another generally at about 9 or so PM. We continued to play WOW through many expansion packs, and had a brief but fun reuiniting with UT probably around 2008 or 2009, locking back in and having a blast for a bit back on our Face servers, and messing around with insta for a while. During this point, I was living in PA, as was he, and he swung by my house to spend a day and night and just hang out. We had known each other online for almost ten years, and we had never met until that point. It was a blast just to get to know him personally, and although we shared some pics over the years just to put faces to voices, talking in person over a few beers made for a very cool day or two.

Back again to WOW for a while with the WoTLK xpac, and we played steady for a bit in the same guild, but then things spiraled a bit for him, and he fell away from gaming after too many years of not being able to find employment, slowly starting to feel depressed, and in the last year or so, becoming beset with health issues. At some point in the last year, John contracted a cancerous tumor in his neck that grew to a pretty hefty size. He had gone in to get it analyzed, and eventually underwent chemo treatment to reduce the size of the mass. From what I was told today, the chemo had taken its toll on him, and a weakened heart quit. Like Mod, also a constant from those early days, I'm still processing. I lost an amazing friend that I hadn't thought would get dealt that card, and that I still have a text from on my phone saying he would call me back after I reached out just to touch base and connect earlier this year, after too long of not seeing or hearing from him. That return call never came, although he said he was sitting watching some TV with his mom, and gave me the smiley face at the end.

I'm sorry for the long winded memory dump, typing out helped me recall a very long friendship that kept me up for a long time when things weren't their best, kept plugging along as my life changed and pulled me away from the long nights where all John and I had to look forward to was some long hours of yapping online while playing one game or another, grew a bit more spotty as our connections lapsed over months when we just didn't cross paths, etc....but he was always there to answer or give the random phone call just to touch base...

He bought me here, and always managed to bring a lot of great folks together. He stayed on long after a lot of folks hung up, or uninstalled, or just grew out of it and moved on. He loved reminiscing about the past, still kept links up on his personal website (juanisan.homeip.net) for clans and clan pages long gone just...because. That was John in a nutshell.

We lost a great one. I feel a bit of an empty spot, and I believe anyone he touched will as well. Thank you for starting this one Mod, it is nice to see he was remembered where he made some of his biggest impacts on folks.
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Post by Archie_Klumper » Sun Aug 18, 2013 2:15 pm

Real sorry to hear this. I didn't really know him real well but I know he was a decent guy. Way too young to go so soon.

Condolences to his family. :cry:

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Post by MADMAX » Sun Aug 18, 2013 11:42 pm

OMFG!

this is so sad , my heart goes out to his family and friends. pengy was a legend and will always be remembered as 1..


i will miss ya mate :(

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Post by modesty_b » Tue Aug 20, 2013 8:41 am

For those who might be interested, there is an online obituary/memorial thing set up by the funeral home:

http://www.janauglefcs.com/book-of-memo ... /index.php
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Post by Judge » Thu Aug 22, 2013 2:59 am

This has been the WORST month for me personally. And have lost 4 ppl. IT TOTALLY sucks! :cry:


Hey Pengy, FUC$ OFF! AMD STILL ROX! :P

Modesty, thanks for the info. <3
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Post by DonutHunter2013 » Sun Aug 25, 2013 7:31 pm

Well said Chris/Apoc--great post man.

Modesty and I are hoping the family will open up the facebook page for new people as I know people would like to see the long history of photos and videos of John with family, friends and playing guitar. So far they have not responded to her private message, but she is trying.

After years of chatting almost nightly (earlier in the night than Apoc) Mod, John and myself finally got together for Ultra Unreal 3 and I now feel fortunate that I got to meet Pengy in person. As I said on his facebook page, he was one of the most generous people I have ever known, but for us in the UT community, he setup forums for clans, setup servers, helped countless people with network and computer and UT problems and loved his Linux UT gaming box. And what a POS it was too....he who helped so many had the worse, cheapest computer that when we got together in real life I helped him take his computer to the parking lot and blow it out and then he had to play with a large fan on his cpu for the whole 3 days. Mod has those UU3 photos if anyone wants to see them.

I played as RIP Pengy on Haley's 2 a couple of nights ago and played as Pengy would play, the most annoying sniper in the universe!!! He would laugh at how upset the other team's players would get at him for his sneaky sniping and I thought it was so much fun I still do that today.

I know we all remember the nightly "drama" of playing UT then, Pengy was always a balancing presence to discussions and was very patient with the hotheads and forgiving--well most of the time. LOL. He had his moments too.

Unlike Apoc, I had no interest in WOW, but tried it a few times with Pengy but it wasn't my thing, I sorry now I didn't keep more in touch. Mod and I would talk about Pengy now and then and finally she found him on Facebook and I always, "keep meaning to chat with him", but I didn't and now I can't. Terrible regret.

John was only 43--so young.

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Post by BAR|Apoc|vT » Sun Aug 25, 2013 10:32 pm

Thanks for more memories Donut- from the quietness on the board, probably due to many of the old-schoolers moving on, those are in short supply. I loved reading your post- and cracked up at your call on his linux box. I saw the pics, and that was as he exactly described it. He was absolutely proud of making something out of nothing with computers, and only very recently in the last year and change did he finally break and upgrade his box to something a bit more modern. He did, however, relegate the old tired comp to what is inevitably the quiet but still functional server sitting somewhere in his room. I still check it most days to see if it is still there. Somehow, if his page comes up, a piece of him still lives on. It still makes me smile to see the logo of that damn penguin with the gun sitting in the corner.

I too cranked up UT once more, and played a few with some of his audio playing in the background. Seems like ages ago.

Great point also on what he brought, he was definitely what kept me somewhat socially acceptable in our small group of peers. Being a bit hotheaded myself from back in our playing days (I'm sure you have some not-so-fond memories of those chats in TS during matches!), he was absolutely a calming presence, not just for me, but for the entire community. He did have some uncharacteristic moments, which made me crack up and have to be his leveler for a few minutes, but on the whole, he brought a calmness to the scene when we would all flare up once in a while. Very much like WoW, UT was a fun place for him just to be....he wasn't concerned with how good he was, or being considered one of the best, he just loved showing up and playing. It was never about the end game for him, just about the game and the community.

I hope things are well your way with Mod, definitely let me know if that FB page opens up, I'd love to see the memories, and add a few of my own.

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Post by {WINGS}Broken_Clock » Sat Aug 31, 2013 6:54 pm

I'm sorry to hear the news. I did not know him personally but I know he always seemed to be in good nature on the forums here, so I'm sure he was the same in life as some of you have stated.

My condolences to his family and friends.
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Post by dkrypt » Thu Sep 05, 2013 4:51 pm

My heart sank.

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Post by Renegadex » Fri Sep 13, 2013 4:58 pm

My heart breaks to read this news -- I knew John was very sick, but fell out of touch with him, over the years. I have plenty of fond memories of him -- his indominatable spirit, incredible technical prowess (which is how I met him via Kenneniah), and a desire to make the world a better place.

His player database kept the peace here and elsewhere for years. I don't know of anybody with a system like it for games of this vintage. It was ground-breaking, easy to use, and a godsend.

This is a fitting tribute page. In his honor I'll try to keep things running, here, as long as I can!

Pengy, wait for us at the flag, in the base -- we'll join you there, someday.

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Post by Thunder-GOLD » Sun Sep 29, 2013 8:29 pm

Omg :crying2: :crying2: :crying2: I've not word to express the pain and sadness that I felt when Acid told me about him. I've been remembering him during the last days and I feel so sad sad I can't believe he left us. He was a great friend even in the distance I hope to see him someday when I pass away too. It would be a great moment for our soul. :crying2:

Bye dear friend and thanks for all the great moments

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Post by big_croc » Sun Nov 03, 2013 3:26 am

I am very saddened to hear this news, and I had no idea Pengy was going through all these issues.

The testimonies here say it all - he was fair, level-headed and fun as hell.

To me, he was an incredible mentor, teammate and friend.
Like Apoc, my best memories of Pengy were late night UT sessions which were really just an excuse to get on TS and chat the night away. There were times when we'd all just stop playing and chat.

I will miss him.

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RIP

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Post by ()morfi » Tue Feb 25, 2014 4:37 pm

Wow I was just checking if the website was still around and came across this post. I am so sorry to hear that Pengy has passed away. My heart goes out to his family and friends. :(

I had a great time playing and chatting with him. He will truly be missed. RIP.

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Post by -Tempest » Sat May 10, 2014 10:45 pm

()morfi wrote:Wow I was just checking if the website was still around and came across this post. I am so sorry to hear that Pengy has passed away. My heart goes out to his family and friends. :(

I had a great time playing and chatting with him. He will truly be missed. RIP.

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I'll echo that first paragraph.

He and I never got along, but he was always a passionate dude and I could respect that.

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Post by NoD|Bone » Sun Feb 22, 2015 11:26 am

Oh my god. I am devastated. :cry:

Rest in peace brother

You truly single handedly made my childhood amazing. You were an amazing person. You surely will be missed. :'(

I hope you are in heaven because you were such an amazing guy. One time, Pengy sent me some RDRAM because I kept complaining about my slow 128mb ram computer. Thanks for that Pengy. I'm crying.
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Post by BeRsErK » Sat Mar 28, 2015 5:14 pm

Just stopped by the ol' forums to see if things were still kicking here. Wow this news is very surprising and sad. Like croc and many others I was once a very young and naive gamer and didn't know a thing about online communities or clans. Pengy and the rest of BAR welcomed me as a late joinee to their memorable team. I am recalling apocs sentiments of how inept we were at competing on ladders but we had fun doing it regardless. Pengy was always the glue that held this community together and will forever be missed.

Some of my most memorable moments of him were chasing him on the towers of ctf-face as he would get extremely annoying as donuthunter eluded to. We would just be laughing our asses off on teamspeak as we tried juking each other out. I also remmeebr him having some serious guitar skills and would play tunes on ts. Pengy contributed and donated countless of hours of his time making haleys what it was. He will be truly missed. RIP

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Post by MADMAX » Fri Apr 10, 2015 12:49 am

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Post by BAR|Apoc|vT » Wed Oct 14, 2015 2:46 pm

Hey Glad, great to see you again, definitely a lot of memories playing with you as a part of BAR, and smiled when I saw your reply. Inept we may have been on ladders, but we were still pretty good in our own little playground, and better with you as a part of us.

All the memories are so John, specifically that snipe-chase-climb-snipe routine of his, I loved it and hated it, and wanted to blast him off ledges with a six pack of rockets and launch his giggling ass into space. Thats what made him John, and thats what made him great. Nice call on that one :D [/img]
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Post by NoD|Bone|Satan » Wed May 27, 2020 7:27 pm

Sometimes I sign on Haleys hot house forums. And I remember Penguin. I cry. I cry. And I cry.

Penguin was one the reason I had so much fun. He was part of my childhood. Like an uncle. Everytime I had problems, I message Penguin and he replied back to me. Every. Single. Time. Even though I was 13 or 14 years old and he was a grown up, he would still take his time and reply to me. When you’re 13 years old and you talk to adults, they ignore you or just treat u like ure a kid. Not Penguin. He was so respectful to everyone. When he would talk to me and treat me like a normal person and not like im a young kid, it gave me confidence and it helped me in real life.

Penguin spent do much of his time to admin the forums and the servers. Fix problems. Help people. Ban cheaters. Unban people that deserved a second chance. I am grateful for everything Penguin. I just wish I was there for you when you were sick. I wish I was there to support you just like you were there for me when I needed you in UT. I didnt know you were sick. I hope you died peacefully and I hope youre in a good place right now. I hope that one day when I die, I see you. And we play some facing worlds. I will show you how to piston jump off the redeemer and get far.

Whoever is responsible for this website, please please please I beg you to keep it up. If you need money to keep it up please contact me. Please. To honor Penguin. I will keep this website alive for the rest of my life.

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